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Ah... Less than a month till the audition... Should I enter? I think not.. Maybe I shouldn't enter at all, its a waste of time.. I wouldn't get in anyway..

Lols? Why the sudden change? Some may ask... I don't know? Maybe I'm entering the state of self-destruction, tossing myself in the so called abyss..

Seriously, I don't really know... I don't know myself, or anything anymore... Everything that was once so clear, blurred out and was replaced with dulled vision. No, I'm not referring to my real eyesight, but my objectives and such were all dulled and gone. Its just not there anymore.

No no no, I'm not entering the "mood-swing" or "emo" period thing, it doesn't works for me. My mood switches with reasons and logically correct. Mind you, I have common logic like average people, don't label me as "incredibly no logic" person. Thank you

Feeling mean? No, I don't think so... Besides, whatever I type here is what I desire and nobody can do anything to it... As long as it has nothing to do with sexual contents, racisms or anything against the law.. Hmm

Ok, I'll stop the crap thing.. But seriously, I don't know whats up with me. I just woke up not long ago, and I swear usually I wake up, I am not in a state of loss or whatsoever... So I guess something within happened and caused certain confusion and something within my resolves or aims faltered and just weakened. So in other words, the pillar that have been keeping my dreams of singing is cracked. End of story..

I am not sure what this blog post about, to be honest... I guess I just felt like it and it made me feel better.. LOL

Today was... Dull... Boring and incredibly dull.. What is happening?! I think I know the reason... This is crazy man, I am about to end one of my longest and most problematic suffering and another pops up. I feel like killing myself... Ok not techinically, just some urge to pull out all my hair.. LOL!

Okay, jokes aside.. I think thats enough for today's blog update before I start blabbering unrelevant things and stupid stuffs.. LOL alright, take care folks! Ja ne!